So the other stuff - it will be a lot of work related posts and vision/planning posts. And to be very honest I don't even know that that means yet but I know that I crave an outlet to write my thoughts on motherhood, work, and how I
You see, though, God doesn’t tell us to seek pleasure or a
life where we just coast. He sometimes
calls us in seasons of our lives to rise up and let Him work profoundly in us
to accomplish far more than we can on our own.
I’m in one of those seasons and I am praying for Him to use me. In these
seasons, and always, He tells us to work hard and let Him fill us with a kind
of rest that a vacation just can’t accomplish. It’s 20 levels deeper. If you
read Proverbs 31, you see a woman who works hard for what matters, rising at
dawn and using all she has for her family and others. And then she rests in
Him. But, lately I’ve been falling into the trap of self-doubt during some of
that rest time. My brain has been spinning a bit, thinking that I cannot write
a great book or be a great mom or have as good of a year in business as last
year. But. But! Then I remember the greatest lesson I learned from 2013:His
plans are far bigger than mine. He is bigger
than me and what I can do on my own. He is in control. My job is to simply
trust and obey.
SO good right? I tell you, while I'm not writing a book I
could have written that exact paragraph. It could not sum up more where I'm at
in this phase of my life. And I can't tell you how many times I whine about how
hard I have to work and that it just doesn't "feel fair." And beyond
that just how very much I struggle with self-doubt. It may be my #1 stumbling
block - to all aspects in my life!
But over the course of this last year I've really come about
to understand that I've been called to this moment in my life and that I DO
enjoy my work and I do enjoy my home life and that I don't have to have one
without the other. I will be very honest in saying that I don't want to work
forever, at least not at the level which I operate currently, and that I dream
of staying home one day with my boys. But those are my dreams and my only real
task right now is to follow HIS plans and where those plans lead I don't know.
I'm hoping to do more listening in 2014 to HIS desires for
my life, because I know that will only take me to good places.
Happy 2014!
